My Problems:

• Gotta start paying off my $14,000 in student loans in August
• Gotta take care of my mom and dog
• Sexual frustration, I need a boy… boys don’t like me
• Taking 4 years to get an associate’s degree
• this place is a fucking mess
• I need to start working out
• … ‘cause I’m a fatass that no male is attracted to apparently
• Can’t transfer to a better job because I’m always late because I can’t bring my self to go to work because I hate it so much
• My managers are idiots and jackasses (well, most of them)
• one of my dogs just died
• my mom’s a crazy b**** and I have no freedom
• trying to get a 2nd job sucks
• I need said 2nd job so I can move the fuck out to get away from aforementioned mother and start paying off the loan
• all my shit breaks and I’m too poor to get it fixed

My bffl, Brett’s problems:

• He has to go work in adventureland, home of the most comfortable costume ever
• He has a girlfriend, who he fights with because they’re both too stubborn to realize they’re both wrong and stupid
• He wants to fuck all the hot girls who hit on him…
• I make him feel bad about flirting back because he has a girlfriend
• umm… his work shirt was rubbing against his new awesome tattoo all day…

I found it on Netflix…

You should watch it

like

NOW

I got a journal for Christmas, it’s empty, instead of writing actual passages, I’m just going to bring it everywhere and write down what I’m feeling when my mood changes and what I think may have caused the change… yeah, I think it’ll help, so I can try and improve the things that cause me to write ‘anxious’, ‘upset’, ‘alienated’… etc. and try to understand why so I’m not so pouty and anxious all the time… yeah… I think it’s a good idea…

I feel like I’m a good best friend… Like, I support you no matter what… but I make sure you remember the consequences… because I always have to be the responsible adult… in every situation… even when I’m with my mom/other “adults”

Anyway!

umm… yeah….

First, spent the day with one of my best friends, at Magic Kingdom and Epcot, and I was deathly ill earlier and now I feel fantastic, laughter really is the best medicine =)

Second, his girlfriend added me on facebook and it doesn’t suck to see all the disgustingly romantic shit he does for her, I’m legitimately ok with their relationship… I even went “awww” at some of the posts.

Third! I got to play with Mike and Sammy’s 8 month old baby Jasper today! HE IS THE CUTEST!!! except when he’s pulling my hair… nope, wait, even that was adorable… and I got him to stop crying; It made me go “yeah, I can totally do this… in the future… the distant future… So not ready for this now… I don’t want to be wheeling a kid around Epcot when I’m 22…”

but you keep scrolling out of habit, then nine pages later you remember that you had a post-inspired idea, but can’t remember what it was so you have to scroll backwards until you find it again…

Unless I know I’m not going to be able to see whoever I’m talking to in person for a while, otherwise it’s like, when are we hanging out?/when do you work next? ok cool, see ya then.

man, I would have like, the best girlfriend ever by now if I wasn’t so damn attracted to men… they fucking suck =/

well, most of the one’s I’ve dealt with at least =P

well… all actually, except one, he was pretty great… I miss him… he was a good kisser… he’s also the only one with a Tumblr… I feel like that says something about the men of tumblr… lol